Coffee? CHECK. Baked bread? CHECK. Not dead? CHECK.

Off to a good start.

did my traditional new year’s day bike ride. had about 12-15 people show up! rode ~15 miles at an easy pace and feeling great.

It just started! Check back in a few months :P

Got a dogshit performance review because I did not conform to the pointless metrics we’re judged against, like ‘Positivity’ and ‘Responsiveness’ (because I didn’t smile every day and I don’t answer teams messages after hours.) I hate this job. Fuck capitalism.

Celebrated with the young 'uns till 01:20 in the morning and no hangover, so two good things - can still drink moderately and stay up past midnight! Yay!

How about you?

Depression sets in pretty early, lmao, as expected. Wonder how long do I have left in me.

New Year’s Eve was typical for me. I fall asleep way too early. We watched the fireworks from Sydney streaming live. Wow what a show! My goal is to get everything in order to retire this year. There’s so much to do, wading through all the healthcare options is probably the biggest.

No one in the neighborhood set off midnight fireworks this year, so that was nice. Got a few last minute plant orders that I’ll be shipping out tomorrow, which feels like a great start for the year. My wife had to put in some wfh hours to process pre-authorizations for the new year so this morning was spent trying to finalize my GDQ prize submission (way too close to the deadline on this one).

I’ve managed to migrate from air mattress and blanket to couch and blanket and I think avoided being hungover, so not too shabby.

I’m to be dismissed from my job Jan 3.

I guess I have prospects. Still, it’s a hell of a kick in the teeth, I’ve never been involuntarily terminated from a job in my entire life.

I’m fed up already. Neighbours felt the need to party, with music and screaming, until about 4am. 2024 looks to be significantly more financially challenging than 2023 as my primary source of income has had the final nail in its coffin. I’m not looking forward to going back to university next week - I like the course as a whole, I just despise one of my fellow students and the thought of having to endure his obnoxiousness for another two and a half years is just…

I’m starting this year from a place of having almost completely given up, and it’s all downhill from here.

Broke up with my long distance girlfriend, I couldn’t handle the distance, it’s the most painful thing I have ever done, but I just felt so sad knowing that it might be years before I ever get to see her 🥲

I’m excited about the new year. I’ve made some new friends and want to explore that. And I might be falling in love but a part of me also hopes that’s not the case.

I hope 2024 is better than the trainwreck that was 2019 to 2023…

Painfully. Ribcage & sternum in bits following some overly exuberant dancing on the 30th. Hopefully just bruising & fractures and not soft tissue damage, but extra uncomfortable with a bad cough.

Still, should help me quit smoking as in too much pain to want to & likewise to shift pattern of seeing boyfriend to something far less frequent.

EDIT: realised I had to end things with boyfriend, so did that then got a barrage of super-manipulative texts, complete with vague suicide threats, so definitely dodged a bullet there. Very supportive message then came in from a mutual friend, so was able to clear up a few things.