Most alcoholism memes I’ve seen in this network were from you, at this point I think you should join AA or some similar group irl to quit drinking. This is not quirky and relatable, it’s a threat to your health and to your life. I’m sure you can get out of this, and talking about it is the first step… Even tho it’s to strangers online and in the form of memes. But don’t wait to much time moving on to the next steps, ask for help.