While growing up everything gave me the impression that sex is the best thing in life and everything revolves around it. Many of my friends had their first experiences really young and it seemed like something really exciting and something to look forward to. However after my couple first experiences I was met with the harsh reality that it wasn’t what I was expecting. I already had a long history of enjoying porn and masturbation and I then just felt like including another person added nothing to it for me. Quite the opposite really - it just got more complicated and often felt like a chore. Like asking someone else to scratch an itch for me.
I don’t know anyone else like me and I’m confused about what am I. I’m quite sexual being but I just don’t care about the act of sex itself. I resonate with a alot of things I hear aces talking about but I also feel like I’m not quite welcome in this club either.
Personally consider myself asexual and I masturbate and look at porn daily. I have plenty of libido, so mostly do it to deal with that. And too ADHD to actually finish up without something constantly reminding me to that focused. I still struggle staying on task. Never tried adding another person; never seemed worth the effort (I’m also Aro). Outside aegosexuals, I feel like porn-consuming (especially visual porn; written smut seems more popular) aces are a bit of a minority. Honestly, not sure what microlabel would fit me best and don’t really care about whether I have a label or not.
Btw, orchidsexual is an ace-adjacent or greyace label for those who do experience sexual attraction but just lack interest in sex.