I feel like I can’t give them the perfect conditions I’d feel a failure. Like most I grew up in bad conditions and absolutely abhor my parents.
On one hand the thought having the knowledge and skills to raise a capable human being is a nice one. On the other there is no guarantee they’d turn out the way I want them to be.
On a second point I am also afraid that I will have to let go of my own life and devote myself to raising them.
A part of me wants to live life. A part of me wants to shape my knowledge into flesh and blood.
I feel this way because I do believe the conditions I grew up in severely limited who I could have become. I’m wishing, if only I was given an optimal environment. I don’t want this for anyone else. If that makes sense.
if people weren’t aware, raising children is used as a political strategy of fascism historically and presently. look up the “quiver full movement”
whereas on the left there are tons of people that refuse to have children, maybe because it’s a hell world especially for intentionally marginalized folks (who are of course disproportionately leftists). or maybe they are associating overconsumption and overpopulation propaganda with their individual choices. or maybe they hate the institution of marriage and family and it’s state construction too much. idk
but then, there are literally people who hate children?? and they’re moreso on the left. okay good luck with hating a defenseless and innocent little being i’m sure that’ll bring more unity to our struggle
point is, the right has a concerted strategy on social reproduction. the left does not, and even sabotages it. the working class is alienated from their own determination of social reproduction. this is a key material concern that has divided along class lines through raw numbers.
I feel as leftists we need to be much more accommodating to familial struggle. I don’t feel stable to have family either, so to me helping create power to benefit working families is a crucial tactic, regardless if I ever have one myself. we need to be in control of our social reproduction because it’s literally an act of survival, and the people who want to end us know that as well.